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observation de vous;

observation de moi
on isolé tiennent le premier rôle
vous ne savez pas qui vous êtes
j'ai vous ai toujours aimé
mais vous avez pris mon amour pour accordé
parole au revoir

the 4 hearts

an almost perfect lady.

August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
September 2008

how is it possible to be so far away from someone when you have him right beside you. how is it possible to have your heart broken when he just made you smile. and how is it possible to look at someone and think of someone else. i don't understand how. is it even possible?


to have someone look so innocent about the thrash going in your mind, to have someone smile at you dotingly with so much heart while your tears come flowing out, to have someone just staying beside you to make you feel you're not alone. to have someone hold you close to comfort you with the presence. and yet your mind's still nowhere near. how much pain can you feel with that.


then to have someone else having a slightly clearer idea of how you feel, but doesn't believe you much. acts, pretends like he does, but actually doesn't. tells you, you're silly to be thinking of such wild things, a strong vivid, wild imagination. to say he's still around for you, but actually he's far from near, no longer bothers. its so surreal, the things that are happening around you.


i don quite understood the reason for the tears. i think the pain was unbearable and i really couldn't hold it in anymore. whatever was said, all the sounds, it was so loud though so soft and then the mind was a whirl. and it probably started off with that stupid bulletin.


if only yu knew... but when was the last time yu even bothered to know about something. how can yu say so much to me and judge me when you don't even realise that yu're lying to me. nothing is what it seems to be. i'm not okay. nothing about everything is okay. yet yu don't even realise it. because yu're so far away. and we're too far apart. and there's absolutely nothing pulling us back. nothing except for the huge amount of pain that i'm feeling. alone. even when there's someone, loneliness is the ultimate feeling. and its just me and myself. and yu know that. yu don't realise anything else but yu know that. i'm just so amazed at how yu play yur two roles so well. but if yu only knew...


I'm not the easiest person to love
I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved
Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me


I'm not too proud of some things
I've done in my life
The skeletons in my closet
Are too big for me to hide
Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
Blessed Charity
You're on the side of me
on the side of me

Everyone needs a friend to hold
when it's cold outside
and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
all alone I cried
there was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
but you

I'm not the easiest person to love
But you, you've opened your heart to show me what I'm worth
'Cause you choose to be on the side of me
on the side of me
What a mystery
You're on the side of me
on the side of me

I remember when nobody cared
Nobody cared
But you...
Yeah you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me

- everything's just temporary;
6:51 PM